3 days left.
3 days before I leave this place, I’ve been living in a remote place for the past 2 years.
I wanted the quiet. I wanted a house close to the beach.
I wanted to live close to nature. And I picked up a VERY beautiful nature ! A place where the desert meets the sea.
This little beach town, is surrounded by high mountains and deep stunning underwater views. A place where a happy international community shares the space with local bedouins. Different religions, beliefs, and cultures… All living together in harmony. Everyone is free to practice whatever one’s wants from arts, sports, spiritual.. you name it !
We have access to organic fresh fruits and vegetables, and natural products are very easy to access. I didn’t buy a shampoo form the store since 2 years ! Everything is natural here.
Yet, i’m leaving !
Why ?
When I decided to move here, my idea was to make it « my base » having a little house close to the beach in a remote place where i don’t feel any pressure from the – western society. A place where I can afford having a good life without working non-stop, and from where I can travel to discover new places, and visit my family, traveling twice a year and come back here, rest and have a simple life…write, read, enjoy life
Well… in a way, I made it. I did it all. Not as easy as it looks, but i made. The other side of the story is that :
- The cost of living and prices have skyrocketed (like everywhere else in the world),
- My income (as a business owner in Digital Marketing) has declined a lot.
To maintain my lifestyle (and my adventures), i should have work twice more, negociate twice harder and change completely my way of working (integrating AI to basically SELL MORE, and FASTER… I didn’t want to do that ! The more I « work » the less I have time to enjoy. and that’s not working for me !
So I tried something different; instead of working in the digital marketing field, let’s do something different ! So I started doing this airbnb thing, I was happy to rent old houses, renovate them, and rent them out.. It was fantastic ! I loved the experience. But I got bored .. 😑 Oups. I loved the process of doing it for the first time. I loved having a project without expectations. As soon as the project became a source of stress, and not a lot of joy… I’ve lost interest…
Meanwhile, since last summer, we all noticed more people visiting (that’s totally fair, they deserve this place as much as I do) But the increased amount of people comes with : more cars, more plastic, more rubbish in the streets, more buildings, a sewage system overloaded… When you’re visiting this place for a few weeks, you fall immediately in love with nature, community and the simplicity of life. No stress here…. But when you live here, when it’s your home, these changes are difficult to handle…
And You start complaining… and i don’t like complaining. I don’t feel like I can actually change anything here, I could enter my activist mode, and fight for conservation of this little heaven, but i don’t feel strong enough…
Also, thanks to the economic crisis, I feel more harassed daily … every taxi driver is insisting loudly to take you, and every shop owner just wants to scam you…
Today, i went running by the beach the weather was so nice, sunny, windy but not too much. Everything was so quiet.. The colours of the sky, the mountains and the sea… Wow.. And I was telling myself I’m leaving this paradise.. I’m leaving this paradise to go sleep in the couch of my moms place in a tinny appartement in southern Europe.. Why am I doing this to myself ?
Today, I’m just taking a moment to realise that I truely had everything I wanted. I’m so grateful. I made it.
But as always, AS SOON AS you have what you want. You start thinking about the next step. OR you maybe you realise that that dream, the thing you wanted so much is not THAT dreamy … You romanticize a lot..
Because nature, as beautiful as it is, is not enough to keep me entertained, excited.
I will sound like a stupid spoiled girl, but to be honest I don’t care anymore about freediving, climbing, hiking, yoga and all the spiritual practices available here and even the artistic side I did the painting, the ceramics,…. I have to be true to myself. And writing it here is a way to remember it.
I need something NEW.
I rested enough.
I played enough
I enjoyed enough.
I want something NEW. bASS